I can’t even begin to count the amount of times I have walked away from a conversation thinking that. Then I spend a huge amount of time trying to process what I think just happened and replaying scenarios in my head like scenes from a really bad movie. Sometimes I confront the person only to find out what I heard was no where near what they said or how they meant to say it but just the way I took it because of some insecurity I had or the mood I was in.
I know it’s not just me because many times I have been confronted by people telling me the many ways I upset them or hurt their feelings when I had no clue. As “mature” Christians we are taught we shouldn’t take offense but is it really offense or a bona fide true reason to be ticked off or is it that horrible nasty “negative mind chatter”. You know the yucky thoughts that make you replay a scenario over and over again and each time you do the tone gets worse and your anger or hurt increases. Then you see the person and they act like nothing ever happened and you get even madder that they don’t justify feelings that they don’t know you have. And you walk away again-OH NO THEY DIDN’T just walk right up to me like nothing ever happened!
Our relationships should be important enough to us to ask and explain-this is what I heard is it really what you said? We will reap what we sow and I want my realtionship harvest to be of understanding, honesty and oppenness not questioning, doubt and bottled up emotions. We can’t, I know I don’t want to, write off another person or relationship when it could have been salvaged by just getting on the same page and shutting up the negative chatter. Remember cast down imaginations! and “don’t hold anyone else liable for things that are really only thoughts in your mind”
I’ve been reading a book on emotions and not being led by emotions. It’s ok to have emotions but not let emotions have you or control you. Anyway, the chapter I just finished was on gratitude. I have been stopping and thinking of all the things I have to be grateful for. How often do you take time for that? How often is it that the things you are most grateful for are the things that you have the most attitude about or towards?
How do we work with that? Attitude diffuses gratitude! When we get to that place of attitude and annoyance we need to pause before we reach that explosion point and be grateful. Not saying be grateful for the situation whatever it may be but praise God for something. We all have something to be grateful for. In our praises walls come down!
The more your heart is in a place of rejoicing and thanksgiving the less room there is for grumpiness and attitude. I’ve been spending time in this place and pausing and remembering the things God has given me to be grateful for.
What are you grateful for?
I’m still spending alot of time pondering mercy and what it means, not just to me but to those in my life. The definition of mercy is “compassion or forgiveness shown toward someone whom it is within one’s power to punish or harm”. So, that’s the definition, and it’s pretty deep but what does it really mean, I mean really mean to me. Historically, not alot it’s something that not only have I not felt I deserved to receive but something that I felt no one else deserved to get. If it was in my power to punish for what I perceived a wrong then I should do that…right? and then many years ago along came Jesus and His thoughts on that…WRONG!
I have always been labeled not only by others but myself as a very black and white and merciless person. When you label or accept a label you are saying that you are the sum total of your issues. That is completely different than identifying your tendancies. When you identify a tendancy you are saying, yes I have an issue and it is a part of my equation but not the sum total of who I am.
Therefore, I may not be a merciful person by nature but I can be by obedience. Everything Jesus is I am! As long as I don’t make any tendancy or personality trait my sum total Jesus can take the equation and work with it until it reaches the total He has given me, as long as I allow it.
What are your equations that you are using as totals? Let’s re work those.
I am overflowing with such anticipation and expectancy about the Mercy Run tomorrow that I haven’t slept all night. I’ve tossed and turned and prayed and tossed some more constantly running thru my mind did I forget anything have I crossed all the t’s and dotted all the i’s, have I done everything I possibly could to make this event a success for Mercy? But, in reality, this is God’s event and He doesn’t forget anything! He has all the bases covered!!
In my waking moments somewhere between trying to sleep, tossing and turning and some cute Everybody Loves Raymond (before the Omega 3 supplement infomercial) reruns in the wee hours of the morning I was thinking about the name Run for Mercy. Initially, I laughed thinking such a fitting name, yes it’s a run to benefit Mercy Ministries but those running the trail will be asking for Mercy, or begging after looking at the trail. I am so happy to have the excuse of too much for me to do to run. But then my Spirit quickened at the thought of running for mercy and how blessed we are that that’s not the case. God’s mercy is right there all the time for us!!!
to be continued….